Cold dark night makes me scream
For how long I have to dream
Lasting thoughts leads me to death
There's no right for me on the earth

Loneliness shade betrays me in pain
Why I live on this eternal chain
The dark forces me not to be brave
Cause this bed will be my grave

I cry out for what I've lost
There's no opening to my way
I'll keep loving at any cost
But someone tells me one day

I am broken
I am a token
Of nothing
Further more

I am painful
I am wrongful
I am nothing
Anymore

But I still love...
Love what I've lost

Cold soft tears r cried every night
My future will be no longer bright
Living a life with no atmosphere
Always being in the level of fear

Weakness is mastering my time
Needing someone is not a crime
I ain't trying to believe in my belief
Cause I'm just living a lonely life

No hope to what I pray for
I belong to cheerless land
Don't know what I'm trying for
And someday I'll understand

I am broken
I am a token
Of nothing
Further more

I am painful
I am wrongful
I am nothing
Anymore

My everything's gone
Gone to waste
I've lost what I found
Found to lose

I cry out for what I've lost
There's no opening to my way
I'll keep loving at any cost
But someone tells me one day

I am broken
I am a token
Of nothing
Further more

I am painful
I am wrongful
I am nothing
Anymore

I am nothing
Anymore

I am nothing

I am nothing

I am nothing
Anymore

21,22,23 March, 2009-Finished: 23:35 pm (23,March,2009)

Able to breathe again
Start a day in vain
It goes against the grain
If someone understands the pain

As a matter of fact
They'll never call me back
My age of life is over
Betray me, Guide me no where

Give me something
That I can believe
But u've got nothing
For me to believe

Why u put a ban
On my simple words
But it seems u can
Corner me by ur own words

I lost my whole life
To consume my time
To find salvation
That I dared to life

Beatitude

U never came to me
When I was in need
I was waging myself
To stay alive

Beatitude
I'm not ur little doll
Beatitude
I'm so near to fall
Beatitude
Bring my life to the light
May I can understand
There's nothing left to fight

Always on the wrong track
My life is going to rack
People think I'm out of wack
Everyone gives me a smack

Feel like a useless person
Living in the world prison
Being helped is just a fake
Torment me, Bound me in ache

Give me the faith
That I had before
Show me the right path
I've lost before

Why I have to pay
My joy to be alive
When I even say
I was born to pain in my life

I wasted my time
To regain my chance
To solve the reason
Of my disturbance

Beatitude

U've never blessed me
When I had my sarrow
I was filling my mind
There's no fortune

Beatitude
I'm not ur little doll
Beatitude
I'm so near to fall
Beatitude
Bring my life to the light
May I can understand
There's nothing left to fight

Everyone's gone
I'm so un done
I'm lonesome

Beatitude
I'm wasting my time
Beatitude
I'm so near to fall

Beatitude

U've never blessed me
When I had my sarrow
I was filling my mind
There's no fortune

Beatitude
I'm not ur little doll
Beatitude
I'm so near to fall

Beatitude

U never came to me
When I was in need
I was waging myself
To stay alive

11, 13, 15, 16, 17, Feb, 2009

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!!!! !!!!

It seems nothing can change
People put me through the wringer
Write it down into ur mind
People want to write me off

Not barkin up the wrong tree
Not gettin off on the wrong foot
So why they'r callin, giving me this faith
I was born exactly yesterday

I put my shoulder to the wheel
Even down to the wire I will seek
But why they'r still bringin me hurt
Why still trying to make me pain

Where's a hand to drown me
In last moments still no breath
Give me something to make me live
In the never meant to be dreams

Noone's as wise as an owl
Someone at least could save the world
They shell money out to love
Afraid of their own shadows

Not hiding their faces in shame
Not something to write home about
Just rubing others' fur the wrong way
Theyr just advanced in years

There's no openin to my search
& they'r still shoutin me bear

I put my shoulder to the wheel
Even down to the wire I will seek
But why they'r still bringin me hurt
Why still trying to make me pain

Where's a hand to drown me
In last moments still no breath
Give me something to make me live
In the never meant to be dreams

2008,July,26 - 13:34 p.m

You bet ur boots
U can't teach an old dog new tricks
You bet ur boots
I can't see beyond the end of my nose
You bet ur boots
Even if I cry bloody murder
U would never ask me how did this happen

Scream is the only thing people do
We can't find another way in their roles
Breakin all the promises they've made
It's the only thing we've found in their views

If u could just one time come to grief
U would understand how this happened

In ur punishment court I cap a plea
Cause I know my blood costs nothing

I'm crackin up
Nowhere I can see someone to confide in
I'm crackin up
Would u convince me of my wrong way
I'm crackin up
Cut no ice, Cryin my eyes out
Would u help a helpmate cancel his pain out

Scream is the only thing people do
We can't find another way in their roles
Breakin all the promises they've made
It's the only thing we've found in their views

If u could just one time come to grief
U would understand how this happened

In ur punishment court I cap a plea
Cause I know my blood costs nothing

2008,July,25-12:33 p.m